Tuesday, May 21, 2013

My Heart Is Breaking

 That's right, Dear Ones, my heart is breaking.
If you read my blog you've heard about the ordeal with my little Mother and her being in rehab.
She's been in the hospital a couple of times the past couple of months with UTIs and chest pains.
No stroke, no heart attack.
Praise God for that!
Well, in the morning she'll be moved to the nursing home floor.
She has been mentally confused and has lost all use of her legs.
She's so weak and they can not find out why.
The following snaps are from a few years ago.

 Mr. Precious and I have been praying about what we needed to do.
We've decided to pack up her things from the retirement home apartment and put them in storage. 
We had told her when she gets the strength of her legs back 
we would just move her things back into another apartment there.
We thought this would give her hope.

But today that hope was smashed.
They'll move her in the morning.
I won't be there as I have a doctor's appointment but will visit later in the day.

I feel numb, I've cried, I've prayed and then cried some more.
Mother will be 90 next month and I was going to throw her a big party at the retirement home.
I won't be able to do this now.
She has always had such pride in her appearance and now that is even gone.
We've been packing up her things for two days now.
Memories flooding in and out.
More tears.
More prayer.
I'm not saying she is dying, only God knows that,
but she has gone downhill so fast it's just astonished us.

Dear Ones, I'm exhausted mentally and physically and will be taking a break for a while.
I can't sleep or function very well in the day.

I love my Mother and she has always been my best friend.
I need your prayers too as I go about this.
I know God is in control and will give us the answers and the wisdom.
As much as I love my little Mother, God loves her more.

You are always a bunch of sweeties,
Shelia :(

I'll pass on a Note Song today.


72 comments:

  1. Praying for you and your mom.

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  2. I love ya Pickle..prayers are coming your way..I so know how you feel being an only daughter and watching this 6 years ago with my own mama..I'm only an email away dear friend..a BIG hug from me to you..Gloria

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  3. Sheila:
    I do know something of how you feel because I just recently spent a week visiting my Mother in Virginia. Everyone said to me "I hope you had a great time". No, it was terrible but how can I say that? My Mom screams, she smashed her cane everywhere, she bit me, she swore non-stop. This is the woman who used to say "Praise The Lord" in every other sentence. My step father is taking care of her and it is not my place to suggest anything. I came home exhausted.

    I am so sorry about your Mother. I pray she will be comfortable in her new place and she and you will still be able to get rest as she gets the help she needs.

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  4. You, your sweet mother and the rest of your family are in my prayers. You do not to feel it necessary to respond to this comment. I realize what an exhausting and emotional time this is for you. Stay strong, dear one.

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  5. Praying for you and your dear Mama Sweet Sheila. It is such a hard thing to watch our parents age and loose the vitality they once had. What a loving daughter you are to be with her each step of the way and I know she is so grateful you are there during this time of life. God bless you and may you feel His arms of love and comfort squeezed tightly around you during this time.

    bee blessed
    mary

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  6. Shelia, I'm sorry your mom's health is suffering so. We all know how much you love her - it always shines through. Don't give up hope. She may get better with continued care. I'll be praying for you.

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  7. Oh Shelia, these are hard times for you, I have been through all of that and there are no words to explain the pain in one's heart when your mom is going downhill. Bless you my friend, I will pray that God will give you the strength to go on.
    Big hugs, Cindy

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  8. Oh sweet Shelia, prayers are going for your dearest Mother immediatelly! My goodness, old age has no mercy, my friend. Last Friday one of my good friend's mother died a week shy of her 90th. b'day, but she was soo sick though. I am so sorry you're going through this sad time in your life. My heart goes out to you.
    FABBY

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  9. Oh, Ms. Shelia, please know how my heart is aching for you. Praying for your Momma and you.

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  10. Shelia,
    So sorry for this change in events. Many hugs and much love to you
    and your family!
    Sherry

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  11. You and your family are in my thoughts. (Hugs)

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  12. Oh Shelia, I am so sorry to hear this. You are in my thoughts and prayers and I will continue to pray for your mother. God Bless. Hugs, Marty

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  13. Oh Shelia, I am so sorry. It is so difficult. I lost my Mom several years ago when I was only 42. I too felt a tremendous sense of loss, she was my best friend as is your Mom. I will pray that it is something temporary and she will get some of her faculties back. Just know you are in my thoughts and prayers and I oh so understand your pain. Keep us posted.

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  14. Prayers going out for you and your mother.

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  15. Oh sweetie, I know this is so hard on you. Thoughts and prayers are with you. fondly ~lynne ~

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  16. Shelia I know how you feel. We are facing putting my mother in a nursing home, as her Alzheimer's is worsening. It's so hard to see our parents health fail, and more difficult to see them pass. My prayers are with you, your mother, and your family.
    Bless you, Laurie

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  17. Saying prayers for both you and your mom. In God's hands. xo

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  18. Oh Sweet Shelia, I will be praying for your family and your precious mom!!!
    Big Hugs!!!
    Blessings,
    Cindy

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  19. I'll be praying for you both Sheila! My thoughts are certainly with all of you!

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  20. Sheila, please know I'm praying as well for you, your family and your precious Mom.

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  21. Praying for you and your beautiful mother!
    Hugs,
    Donna

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  22. Oh, my dear friend, I am praying for you. I can only imagine what you are going through. With my dear, little ninety-year-old mother still here I do have some understanding. You will continue to be in my prayers. Please know that you are loved! I'm asking the Father to hold you close in His strong arms and give you comfort. He will walk every step of the way with you. Sending hugs to you,
    ~Adrienne~

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  23. Sending prayers and hugs your way. I am thinking of you.

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  24. Shelia, I'm so sorry to hear this. My sister that I've told you about a while back was moved to Rehab today. She has some wierd things going on with her and the care she has been given at the hospital is so lacking. My neice is going through the same type of things. I'll have you in my prayers. God bless you and keep you and your sweet Mother. Take care.

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  25. Awwwww Shelia...I'm so sorry this is happening. I had no idea your mother had taken such a turn. I'll be praying for all of you, sweetie. God bless you! ♥

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  26. Oh honey, I did not know you were going through this with your mom. It sounds like some mini strokes have affected her. I'm so sorry for your worry and concern.......she is going where she needs to be right now, an experienced staff will take good care of her and you will be there often to visit with her. Keep looking up, He is in control. Am keeping you all in prayer.

    Love the pic of the 3 hot mamas dressed in red!!!

    Do not spend time responding to all of us, we know you love us as we love you!!! xoxoxoxo

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  27. I am so sorry Sweetheart! I know it does not help one bit, but these days come to all of us. All you can do is smile and be there for her. I know my time is coming sooner than I would like to think and it frightens me.
    It's all in God's hands. We love you, Shelia!

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  28. Shelia dear, I know first hand how hard this is for you. As you mentioned several time about the sweet memories, believe me, they will become even sweeter. You are in my heart and prayers as is you precious mother.

    Best,
    Bonnie

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  29. So sorry for what you and your Mom are going through. I can understand...my Mom is 93 and although her body is strong, she is going downhill mentally. These are the times we need those sweet times of prayer.

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  30. Be strong...sending you our love and prayers xx

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  31. Oh dear sweet Shelia, I am so sorry about your dear sweet mother. I know how very much you love her. I will be praying for you and her. God will see you through this, be strong.
    Love
    Mary

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  32. Dear Sweet Sheila,

    My heartfelt prayers are with you and your loved ones right now. It has to hurt so!

    My own dearest sweet Mom only lived to be 59 - so we never got to see her grow old. I cannot even imagine your concern.

    I think leaving it to The Lord Our God is the best way to handle it.

    Keep your Faith, knowing she is in verey very Good Hands while going through these changes.

    Hugs.

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  33. My thoughts and prayers are with you dear Shelia. I have been through the same torment,so know just what you are going through. xx jeanetteann

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  34. Shelia I know this is so hard. I'm praying for you and your sweet Mother! God be with you both through this change. Sending you a big hug.

    Linda

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  35. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family and especially your lovely mother.

    Blessings,
    Diana

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  36. Hugging you and holding you in prayer, sweetpea! ♥

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  37. I will be praying earnestly for you and your mother. I certainly understand your need to take a break and please remember we have all grown to love you and your family. Mildred

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  38. Oh my sweet Sheila...have I ever been praying for you and your strength. I know that these times are not easy at all. They hurt so bad that one thinks, "Why get out of the bed this morning to face an unknown day"~ The Lord will carry you through this my friend. One day at a time. If He carries us to it He will carry us through it. But.....He never said the road would be easy to travel that is for sure. But His yoke is light! He has your precious mama in the palm of His hands and you too my friend. You know i have been praying and will continue to lift you up to our Lord. I have prayed for a peace that would surpass any understanding that you could imagine. I know how you feel. So many mixed emotions. Jesus knows what you are feeling too. Praying without ceasing. Hugs and blessings, Cindy

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  39. Shelia I am so sorry to hear about your mother's health. Sending you hugs across the miles. xoxo

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  40. Oh Shelia,
    I am so sorry you all are having to go through this. Sending prayers, love, and ((Hugs)) from Washington. Praying for your mom's health and recovery, hang in there sweet friend. XOXO ~Liz

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  41. My heart goes out to you...I just experienced this last August. My mom was 89.

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  42. Oh Shelia, I am sooo sorry about your Mom. I know just what you are going through as last year at this time, my Mom suddenly went downhill also. She ended up in the hospital because of her confusion and disorientation, paranoia, voices, etc. We were told she could not go home and needed full time care. She never wanted that.......the Lord took it in His hands and Mom coded the night before we were to move her. I couldn't wish her back...she was miserable. I was grateful that I got to spend the last week of her life right beside her caring for her. I know how exhausted you are and my prayers are with you both. The most important thing is that you are with her and she knows you love her. You are a loving daughter. Blessings on you all, Linda

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  43. Hi Sheila, so sorry to hear about your mother's health. I know how you feel right now. Please take care of yourself too, be strong and think positive.

    With lots of love and hugs to you and your mum. God blessed.

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  44. I saw this on FB....and I am so sorry. But, you need to know that she is where they can take care of her, and that is the most important. I lost my mom when I was 30 years old. And it was hard...I can't imagine having her for so long....but thank the Lord for all those wonderful years and memories. I am praying the Lord is real to you and gives you peace. And I will be here whenever you feel like posting!

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  45. So sorry, Sheila. You and your Mother are in my thoughts today and saying a prayer for both of you! Such a blessing that the two of you have been so close and I'm sure you are a huge comfort to her now.

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  46. Oh, dear Shelia, I am so sorry to hear about your mom -- and it goes without saying that you have my prayers for both the recovery of her body and her spirit. Perhaps if she is well enough to visit her former home, you could have a gathering there for her, even if she isn't still a resident. I'm sure they would be happy to accommodate that for you -- or they should be.

    I have walked the journey you are on and it is so terribly difficult. Our hearts are filled with love, the knowledge that although loss may not be imminent, it will come -- and every change in the body and soul IS a little bit of loss, bit by bit. One is tired and needs to make decisions and all your physical and emotional energy is going into that love and caring.

    So, my prayers will be not only for your mom, but for you as well, as you walk this difficult journey. Sending love, jenaie

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  47. Dear Shelia, I'm so sorry that you are going through this so suddenly. I have been through it with my mother and hubby's mother and it's so difficult. I will be thinking of you and praying that God will give you peace about this and also comfort for the loss you are feeling and strength for the days ahead. I will also pray for your dear mother that God will be gracious to her in her need. God bless you. Love and hugs, Pamela

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  48. Shelia,
    "Many things about tomorrow
    I don't seem to understand,
    But I know who holds tomorrow. . .
    and I know who holds your hand."
    Lifting you and your sweet Mother up in prayer daily, dear friend!
    I know you will cherish each moment that you have with her!!!
    Fondly,
    Pat

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  49. Just a quick note to say that I just found your blog today...and I'm so sorry to hear about you mom... I went throught something similar with my own mom 3 years ago and lost her at the age of 73...she loved a good craft project and would have loved your tutorial with the plates and fabric...I wish you and your mom all the best...

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  50. Prayers and hugs! Please keep us posted..Pat H

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  51. My dear Shelia,
    Return when you are able dear girl, all of your energies are needed elsewhere for now - goes unsaid that my love and prayers are with you, Mr Precious and your family.
    Huge, gentle hugs to you dear friend.

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  52. My heart is hurting for you. I will keep you and your mother in prayer. Keep us posted!
    Big hug to you,
    Maria

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  53. My dear Shelia, I pray for strength for you during this time, you are such a wonderful supportive person, continue doing what you do and it will be ok.

    My prayers are with you and your family. Take care

    Raquel

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  54. Oh Shelia, I am so sad to hear about your darling mother. Our prayers are being said this minute. I'm praying for you to have strength to go through the next weeks. You will do what ever you have to do because your have inner strength. You are right, our Lord and your faith in HIM will be your support as well as prayers from the many people who love you.

    Love and blessings to you and your family.
    Jeanne

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  55. Heartfelt prayers being said for you.

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  56. dear sheila, reading this is almost a mirror image of what we've been dealing with with my almost 93 year old mom. she fell in mid-march, had hip surgery, then went to rehab for over 30 days. she's back in her assisted living but wheelchair bound and has quite a bit of confusion. total loss of her legs. we're hoping she can stay in her assisted living as long as we can afford it and as long as she doesn't go down hill any further. my prayers are with you and your sweet mom. i try to remember god is in control and knows what's best of our dear mothers. also praying for you....this takes a lot out of the caregivers as well. my thoughts and prayers will be with you and your family.

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  57. Shelia, I just saw your post. I am so sorry to hear about your sweet mother. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

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  58. Love and prayers to you and your Mother. God knows what is best and may you find comfort in Him.

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  59. Sheila, I am so sorry about your mother. I'll be praying for you both.
    xo Beth

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  60. I'm so glad that you will be able to be near her so she can feel your love. I pray that both you and our mother have comfort and peace of mind

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  61. I will keep you and your mom in my prayers.

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  62. Las tengo en mis oraciones y su madre es dichosa al tener una hija como usted

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  63. Shelia, God Bless you and Bless your sweet mother. He loves you both, and as always He and only He knows when our mission on this earth is completed. May you feel of his comfort and his love. Karie

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  64. I'm so sorry. Sending prayers your way for all of you.
    Robin

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  65. Oh, Shelia! I'm so sorry. I'll be praying for all of you. I hope you have a blessed and restorative weekend. Hugs, Kathryn @TheDedicatedHouse

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  66. My thoughts and prayers go out to you Dear Sheila.....how wonderful to read that you Mom is your best friend....God Bless you both...

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  67. Dear Shelia~I'm so sorry to read about your moms health struggles. I know how important it is for you to be by her side. I hope she feels your love surrounding her and garners strength from it. Your family will be in my heart and thoughts for recovery.

    Sweet wishes,
    Sara

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  68. Sheila dear, how sad to read about your Mother. I know you must be so scared. You are her rock and Having your Mom as your best friend is so very special. You and your family have my prayers. Healing thoughts to mend broken hearts and health issues. Here's a big hug from me. xoxox Linda

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  69. I'm so sorry, Shelia. This must be very hard and upsetting for you, especially since it seems to have come on so quickly and without explanation. I will be thinking of you and your Mom.

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  70. Oh my sweet friend! I am crying reading this post. Sending all my love and prayer son to you and praying for your mother. I am out of. Town but wanted to check to see how things were going for you since she' been sick and hate that you went though this.

    Know that I am thinking of you and sending much love your way.

    Typing with one finger so please excuse any typos.

    Xoxoxo,

    Sheila

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